Haiku Friday: Nervous

One more day until
Cordy goes for another
evaluation

The school did it first
but now we are seeking a
medical response

Does Cordelia have
autism? Doctors will have
their say Saturday

If yes, more doors will
open for treatment and more
therapies also.

But I know this will
be so hard on her – testing
really bothers her

They will push her to
her limits, and I will do
my best not to cry

We’ve been through these evaluations before, but since they were performed by the school system, they don’t “count” in the long term. I placed her on a waiting list for a medical evaluation over 6 months ago, but due to the high demand for these evaluations now (scary, isn’t it?), there was still no call. Thankfully, her case worker reminded me that they work with providers other than the big hospitals, and worked her magic to get an appointment within a month.

While I know that we’ve done this before, I can’t help but remember that horrible first evaluation, when Cordy thumped her head on the floor over and over, shrieked and screamed so loud that she scared the nurse, and clawed at the door in an attempt to escape. I don’t expect a repeat of that behavior, but she will likely be uncomfortable and may lash out. I hope she’ll show them only as much as she needs to show to make up their minds, without getting too upset or manic.


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Comments

  1. Sounds like a tough day, but I hope it results in Cordy getting what she needs.

  2. She is gorgeous.

    I hope that you will all find more answers during the evaluation, and hoping that Cordy will in turn receive what she needs.

  3. Rachael says

    She’s a beautiful girl. I hope that she does okay at the eval. I know it’s hard, but hopefully it will lead to her getting whatever help she needs, no matter the diagnosis. They’re not just testing her limits either, they’re testing yours. I’ll send you “keep it together” vibes, I know I would need them!

  4. What a beautiful little girl!

    I hope that it goes well (and quick)!

  5. Good luck. You’ll both be in my thoughts.

  6. Whatever happens – you have a beautiful child, and you’re an awesome parent.

    Tink *~*~*

  7. I’m crossing my fingers that the evaluation goes well. That she shows them her true self so that they can really determine what she needs. And that you feel stress free the whole time!

  8. Sending positive energy and strength to both of you on this challenging day and hoping for a good outcome for all concerned.
    Hugs and blessings,

  9. I will keep you in my thoughts tomorrow!!

  10. Good luck I will be thinking of you … and my gosh that hair – I would LOVE to have hair like hers!

  11. So very tough for you and her. I’m so sorry this has to happen. I hope the benefits you know you’ll gain through this help you through.

  12. I hope it all goes well Christina. Much love to you!

  13. Deep breath!

    Can you plan something she’ll like and is relaxing/fun afterward, or promise her a reward for getting through it? Not to add stress to “perform” and not to plan something that if she’s too upset you have to cancel, but something simple — whatever helps her calm down?

    DuckyBoy has always been OK after tests, but he saves his worst behavior for during.

    It IS hard to watch though … try to remind yourself a good thing — you’ll get more services than if Cordy behaves at her best. Since services offered are rarely enough (and sometimes don’t live up to the best you’d hope for), qualifying for more than you think she needs will likely get her just enough.

  14. oh, keeping my fingers crossed for your Saturday eval. Let me know what happens.

  15. I’m crossing fingers and toes. Good luck!

  16. Cordelia is a beautiful little girl. I hope that the evaluation is speedy and as stress-free as it can possibly be for both of you. Good luck!